I am sitting in my den doing school work and thinking: "Wow. I am so lucky." And I am overcome with a feeling of gratitude and deep, deep joy.
When I think back to where I was three years ago, I am amazed at how far I have come.
I remember the way it was and the way it is now:
THEN: I was 40 pounds heavier. I would get out of breath easily and my fitness level was dismal. I hated going to the mall because I couldn't buy or wear anything cute or fun. I had to try on many, many items and nothing would fit. My skin was always troubled. I felt self-conscious about all the extra fat and thought I was horrible-looking.
NOW: I am strong and energetic. I laugh easily, have fun, and know that if I want to go hiking, I can go hiking. If I want to go to a spinning class, I can hang. I can go to the mall and walk in to any store and buy clothes without even having to try them on. I am frequently surprised by having to take things back to get a smaller size. My skin is clear, my eyes are bright, and I am comfortable with myself. I could certainly lose more weight, but I am not trapped by it anymore. I know I eat healthfully, I am active, and I care about my health. That is a drastic and amazingly welcome change.
THEN: I was unhappy and unmotivated. I couldn't find pleasure in anything. I frequently left things unfinished and poorly done.
NOW: I am excited by life. I love what I am working towards (even though I am not always 100% sure of the final destination) and I take pride in everything I do.
THEN: I had no close friends and no good relationships. I was frequently lonely and bored. I did not have close relationships with my extended family and felt sorry for that.
NOW: I have several lovely friends and many close ones. I feel enveloped by the love and regard of good people: family and friends. I feel more connected than ever with my family and I love and appreciate all the wonderful people that have come to my life.
Think about your own life: where you have been, where you are now. Maybe there are things you wish could be different, but maybe there are things that are much better than what they were. Count those blessings and find strength to bring more joy in to your life.